Welcome Back.

I'm welcoming myself back because i know it's been awhile.
However, nothing has really changed.
Last semester of freshman year. =]
But at the same time, here's where reality plants its seed. But such is life and we can't stand still forever.
and this i call Welcome Back:
...
There once was a girl who loved to dream
but the reality of her dreams were nothing like it seemed.
she would sit alone, wishing someone would come beside her
she walked aimlessly, with faith that someone would guide her.

So she stumbled across a face that to the human eye would seem unclear
but in this face, she saw her reflection-kinda like a mirror.
This girl took the hand of this foggy image and together they walked
in danger's land.
Addicted to the idea of love, she wasn't alone anymore
and this is what made her smile.
She found what she thought she was searching for
-it took her awhile.

seconds...minutes....hours....days...weeks...months....years...
past.
her body fragile like glass.
bruised easily, her face painted, like a mask.
her hair tough and locked
like her mind her soul
she once was a girl made of pure gold.
But her gold was sold and even traded for copper
No one would watch her
No one would take her in
Not even her "love" that created this person.

At night
when all was said and done, she knew she couldn't live like this
but she was so far gone.
So she reached for her boyfriend but he wasnt there,
that reflection that she saw in the beginning was just a mirage
and this life she lived was all a facade.
So she layed there, tryna find ways to get high again, to erase the pain that was pertruding
from within.
But there was nothing
no man to caress her back and tell her she was beautiful
no cocaine, no crack to reverse her tracks and take her back to her dreams
There was nothing.
so she crawled to the door
stood tall on her own feet
turned the knob
and her new reality she would seek
with smiles covering its face
and open arms

Welcome Back.